Carpe diem

November 11th, 2010

I’m not someone who thinks the best part of life will end after college. 

I hate when people say, “It’s all down hill from here” or some other clichéd variation of the same idea that fun dies when a degree is earned. 

I am graduating in a little more than a month, and, as a result, I am inundated daily by excitement and uncertainty. 

I’m having more trouble than ever being mindful during a period of time when it is important to me that I value and make the most out of my experiences. 

I want to be with my friends and stay out late and walk to class and complain about my homework as much as I can before the end of the semester. 

But, I can’t resist counting down the weeks left in the semester; thinking about moving to a new city; and planning for tomorrow, next month, and next year. 

We are a generation of people who live in the future. We text others while we are with our friends. We say “maybe” when people invite us to events because we might find something better to do. We “talk” to significant others because dating requires too much commitment. 

Who wants to be tied down when there are so many uncertainties and opportunities waiting in the future? 

So, while we put off commitment of any type and dream and plan for someday, we miss the present. 

College, for many of us, will be the last opportunity we have to be surrounded by people so close in age and lifestyle to us. 

There is something very cool and unifying about seeing the same people at the bar as you see in class or at the gym. 

After graduation, those kinds of encounters will be called coincidences or “bumping into each other,” but in college it is expected that work life will mix with social life. 

So, though I am excited to make my own money and pursue a career, I’m really sad about leaving behind my college lifestyle.

In these last few weeks, I’m going to do my best to stop stressing about future plans and really soak up all the college I can – go out on weeknights, get no sleep; and wear Uggs and yoga pants. 

At this time next year, I’ll be trading in my babysitting jobs for a full-time, salaried career. My schedule won’t accommodate the same lifestyle it does now. It won’t be acceptable to wear spandex to work. 

In less than a year, I’ll be living in Texas, away from my family and friends and everything that is familiar to me. Everything is about to change for me, which is exciting.

Fun doesn’t end after graduation. I’m looking forward to establishing my career. I can’t wait to have my own house and decorate it. Maybe I’ll get married and have kids and all of that. There’s a lot to be excited about. There is a lot to plan.

But, now is not the time for that. 

Every obsessive part of my personality will be working against me, but I’m determined to let go of my worries about the future for the next few weeks and just have fun here while I can.